If you ever wanted to know how I feel, sit yourself down at a piano keyboard. (Never mind that you probably don't want to know, but humor me for a few moments.) You will already have poured yourself a healthy dose of whiskey into a highball glass containing two or three ice cubes. Take a few sips before setting the glass down on the piano, and you might want to use a coaster. What I want you to do now is play a C octave on the lower register and hold it for, say, four measures. Let the low drone sustain and permeate your soul. Good job. As the low C is ringing out, take your right hand and arm and, starting from middle C#, press down on all the black keys that you can, from your fingers to your elbow. Hit them moderately hard, mezzo forte. Excellent. Now I want you to play a C# minor major seventh cord, third inversion, as you let off the pedal. You want that dissonance of the C and C# notes really emphasized. You’re already making me weep and scaring me at the same time. Nice. Finally, I want a chord cluster with a C# octave on the bass. The right hand will play F#, G, and C, and you’ll hold it for as long as you want. Observe a fermata of your own choosing. Don't forget to finish off the glass of whiskey and let your thoughts roam toward the abyss and back.